THE GRAPHS OF LIFE

I just thought, to be a little technical this time.... Based on the following factors:
1. Mom and Dad scold
2. Teacher scolds
3. Toy Breaks
4. Friends' fight
5. Self Respect Hurt
6. Hurt elbow/leg
7. Loved one hurt
8. Failure in life,

this is how the life takes curves...

1. GROWN UPS











2. CHILDHOOD














3. TEENAGE

For Someone..

I am a college student, engineering undergraduate, my life revolves around placements, projects and papers, may be I never see beyond. Pain for me is to get 89.9 and not 90, happiness for me is 30 on 30 in my first minor. That's how I define pains and party's.

And today, may be I can say, I have gone far beyond all this... A stage where all this becomes zero, mind becomes blank, seems like my aorta stopped pumping for me... just one statement that took away everything to pieces, and may be taught me the biggest lessons in life... that may be life isn't about all this, it's about LIVING... Living taught to me by a person..

I have never seen her, she is intelligent, she is great, she is magnificent, she is the topper of her college, she can solve puzzles that no one else can, she can solve circuits while in a mild walk , I have never seen her.

But I have learnt a lot from her, she is truthful, she is sincere, she is stable, she is loyal...Sometimes, she does not keep well, but still she is the reason , for the energy , zeal and success of someone, I have learnt a lot from her..

God , I believe, you listen... I do!! I can feel you are around... I don't know how to pray for someone I haven't ever seen, but I had tears ... For you may be... Why do you do it people who are good? I know you set the papers, adaptive type, the next one gets tougher.. But then , for people who already keep 100 percentile, I suggest , stop taking papers God. Please, I am ready to give one more if you want, but for people I like, keep them happy. I won't mind giving papers for ever till I die and even after that, I won't turn back to ask you "Why?". It's a deal. You keep my people happy, and I will keep you happy. It's a deal...

SAYING THANKS TO EVERYONE...

This one's for everyone.... for my mom, dad and grandma here with me.... to my grandpa, in the heaven, to my God, to my Mentor, to my friends, to my teachers, to my classmates and ....
My little pen that makes me write,
My laptop small with its screen wide,
My bag which helps me hold my books,
And the mirror in which I check my looks,
My mobile which keeps me on,
And my ipod for its beautiful songs,
My room white, and my lamp's light,
My campus wide, and its rooms bright.....

Everyone ......... Just want to say thanks... because somewhere somehow you made me what I am...............

BECAUSE IF I OPEN THE DOOR

Diwali, My sweetheart has come again,
Bringing all bliss and all gain,
I love it, but I hate it more,
When Ram comes, I close my door,

But Ram, forgive me if you can,
Ram, understand me if you can,

Because if I open the door,
The voice of the crackers comes in,
My granny can't hear it,
She is a weak heart...
And I love her more than you...

Because if I open the door,
Dust and Smoke comes in,
My Mom gets choked,
And she can't cook the food,
And I love her more than you...

Because if I open the door,
Fire is seen more than light,
My Father gets angry,
And he does not smile,
And I love him more than you...

Because if I open the door,
Ram, I don't see you anywhere,
My visions get blocked in smoky hues,
My happiness gets lost in bomb explosion blues,

Still I fight Ram, when everyone has slept,
I open the door, with my eyes still wet,
In a hope that you will come besides me one day,
And in my hand your blessings you will lay...

But you never come Ram,
Or may be they don't let you ....

I STOPPED MAKING THE FOOTPRINTS OF GOODNESS....

Walking in the forest of emotions, passions, corruptions and deceptions, I clearly remember the mark from where I stopped looking back. My footprints are still there, many rains and pains have not rubbed them off. Behind that mark, there is a series of my footprints, I made them prominent, and after that-- Before taking the next step, I rub off the previous one. I am unclear of deciding whether I am happy or sad about that!! But yes, I am contended.
The forest was always deep, I saw wolfs as much as I saw deers. I saw elephants as much as I saw termites. I saw giraffes as much as I saw ants. The nature, the weights, the heights, never made a difference. I was in love with all of them. One day with a veil, I was traveling my normal way, I saw the wolf conspiring against me, the deer was resisting him, it got killed. I saw the elephant dominating my worth, a million termites were supporting me, they got pressed, died. I heard the giraffe talking about how high he was compared to me, the little ant was displaying over that, it became the meal with the grass.
With tears in eyes, I pondered and thought- why the truthful was killed, the tender was pressed, the sincere one became the meal. And no answer ever came. I loved my ant, my deer, my termites, for they were important. They were my everything in that deep high forest from where sunlight was difficult to see. I thought I must travel back, and see where I made a mistake in loving the wolf, the elephant and the giraffe. Scanning my footprints long back, my hatred grew and my love reduced. I stopped, came ahead. I became the fiercer wolf, and killed him. I became the heavier elephant, I showed him the truth. I became the higher giraffe, I made him feel guilty!! But I am still not happy.
I think sometimes, had my little ant not spoken, she would have been there laughing besides me, if my termites had not resisted, they would have been here, all here, had my deer not got annoyed, he would have been still giggling. In the process of changing the world, I had to become one wolf, one bad elephant, one stupid giraffe.
I wish , we all had been good, good at heart!! For each other, with each other, but I wish we had been a better wolf for the wolf, a heavier elephant with the elephant and a higher giraffe with the giraffe, may be then I would have saved my little ant, deer and termites. I love you all.
I stopped making footprints, because they still hurt, for having been such a good person that we lost it all. May be a little badness , would have kept goodness alive, alive at-least and not dead....

FAITH IS BINARY-0 or 1

Well, going along too well with Digital Circuits these days!! I have been hearing about the two states that are binary- 0 and 1, no confusions, no doubts, clearly just one side of the big lane called life. Either you walk on the left, or you walk on the right, because walking in the middle can mean you being killed by some over-speeding truck of unfelt emotions or confusions.
It is the same with faith I guess, 0 or 1, either you have or you will never have. A faith that comes with belief, from your heart, either the aorta pumps blood or it will not, either the valves will open or they will not, either your heart will say yes- believe it, or it will lie stale and won't speak ever. That's how the story of faith is!!
This one's for a special event that happened to me and I guess, it will last forever with me as my most cherished memory. Special because it gave me the zest to be truthful forever, loyal forever. Someone whom I will call a person of values I have seen in life, there I was standing with a piece of paper, insignificant but important, needing signatures. And this person, looked at it- saw it, and signed, did not read it. And why? Just because it is all about the belief someone has on me, a belief that loaded my heart with the biggest responsibility of the world, to keep that loyality , that faith, that duty of being truthful, enlightened forever. In one little glance, a person who made me duty bound for my whole lifetime, not to cheat ever. Because I know, faith is a thread, and threads broken join with knots. And I do not believe in knots.... Its always about the originality that holds things together. Threads joined by knots are weaker... and again... it is binary--- 1- it holds, 0- it is gone forever....

I KNOW , I KNOW NOT...

I know happiness, sadness I know not,
I know smiles, tears I know not,
I know sincerity, Diplomacies I know not,
I know truth, lies I know not,
I know faith, deceit I know not,
I know to love, hatred I know not,
And the irony is,
I had to know the "KNOW NOTS"... And I ....
Just don't.... Just won't....

I just wanted a little light, not the moon....

I was small. I used to look at the moon and had the desire to get it in my hand. Shining ball of everlasting brightness....And then someone would show me the reflections , I would sprinkle the water up and get happy. Then I grew up!! So did my desires, my convictions, my thoughts, my contemplations, my wishes, my whims.... And I am affirmative the latter grew at a faster pace. This time I thought, I would not ask for the moon, I thought economically, I just wanted the light because according to my extreme selfishness, only that was useful.

I went to God's temple. I said- 'I know God , you love me. But this time , I want a proof. Some kind of evidence, so you have to give me all light that the moon has tonight, just one night , I am not asking for much'. I could see tears trickling down, God's eyes, yet I remained stubborn. I want it. I asked him- Why are you crying. He said-'Nothing'.He agreed. I was happy.
Coming home, i kept thinking, why was God crying??? He is the supreme power. He also has to cry??? Strange.

Night came. I was going to get what nobody had got. Moon's light- eternal, white, shiny, and mine. I kept looking, nothing happened. Night was passing, but I could not see the moon. I looked back, saw God sitting, again crying. This time, he hugged me tight, and said- "I was crying because my daughter asked something for the first time, The moon's light tonight, and I am helpless ". I was still not moved by his tears- I said why??
He said- "Today is No Moon Day"...
Looking at him- I said- You are such a diplomatic. I just wanted a little light, not the moon. And you played a game with me.
He looked back, distressed, broken down by my statement, and lit himself up. I got enough light. More than moon would have given me. But,....
I LOST GOD.....

I need you all !!!

There are many people in the world , seeing whose smiles, I laugh! But surprisingly there are just a few seeing whose sadness I feel hurt! This one's for such special people in my life! They are happy, I feel happy, they are sad, I feel sad. They weep, I cry, they smile, I laugh. They ignore, and I feel alone even with the crowd around me, they are along, I feel surrounded even in thirsty deserts. For all people, who define not just my smiles, but even more the rhythm of my heart, do not ever be angry, do not ever be annoyed with me. If I do a mistake, forgive me. Because you are people, my heart says- are "Mine". Worlds might die down , but I know you will all be standing like trees around me to protect me from every heat stroke. And I am so habitual of your shadows, that I might forget happiness if those shadows go away. I need the shadows, I need you all!!!Be there , like you always have been.....

That's me!!

A number of times, infinite probably, I have tried to be an active part of our stale society! I know , I am not extraordinary, I am not so talented to be recognized at the first site , I know that! I am a simple person, studying books, getting good marks, listening to music in holidays, watching television when free, writing poetry sometimes and reading books rarely! That's me! I have a simple heart, I can not impress people with my achievements, in total ,with the whole sets included, I think my resume would be much lesser in pages than others.
Yet there is one resume, from my heart, by my heart, for everyone in the world to read!! And then if you have to reject me, I am thankful!! Thankful not to be a part of something that my objectives do not match with.

MY NAME: YASHNA SHARMA
ADDRESS: An inhumane world where people know only money and
market!! They don't look beyond
CAREER OBJECTIVE: Well, I am sorry! I do not have typical career objectives. I just
want to be happy and keep everyone else happy as well!! Just
want to make this hell a better place to live....

Anything else, those education and marks' tables, those list of achievements , half of them gathered by fighting for certificates, those hobbies , and all else.... does not matter, should not matter!
Let's give ourselves space--at least to live, at least to breathe, at least to smile....

Well, the best thing about this is.... I have written this!!

ज़िंदगी को जीते जीते, कुछ ऐसे आगे बढ़ गये,
मूड क्रर् जो देखा, तो अपने ही खो गये

सागर मे बहते बहते कुछ ऐसे कश्ती खो गयी
किनारा जो देखा तो हैरा से हो गये

कांटो की हमको अब कुछ ऐसी आदत हो गयी
फूलो को देखा तो नाराज़ हो गये

ज़िंदगी को जीते जीते कुछ ऐसे आगे बढ़ गये
मूड क्रर् जो देखा तो मंज़र ही गुम गये

The Gibb's Phenomenon of Life

My vision had blurred me. My hearing had ditched me. My heart had decieved , or may be- for the first time, my mind had answered- 'Reality'. Papa always told me- The world is not that good , dear! And I had always smiled and answered back- papa, Delhi High Court has made you a suspicious person, See it from my eyes, The world is pretty and full of happiness, just happiness!

Three years in Engineering, now I feel, had I seen it from his eyes, I would have been less hurt. But fools always learn about fire after it burns them. Caring for others, I forgot care, loving others, I forgot love, liking people, I forgot likeliness, transforming others, I am myself on the verge of transformation.
And today looking back, let me say that in the words of my favourite subject, my mentor's subject, the craving for Infinite Impulse response kills, sometimes you need to use windows to cut down responses to make it compatible with your heart's processing capability. And remember not to use Rectangular Window, sharp responses and ripples suck, it is better to use Hann, the response has to taper down, because the Gibb's phenomenon in life is very important. Care for that!!!

EXAMS!! Oh!!

EXtra-ordinarily Abominable Monotonous States of life!!! How true that definition will be!! Exams that I have been rightfully giving since the last three years that I have been a part of this dicsipline called Engineering. Before one goes, the next comes over, life seems less, syllabus more. Night and day, no talks, 8 in the morning to 2 at night , without breaks and with two meals, that's how I define my Exam life. Seems difficult!!
But is it actually difficult? No, unfortunately not! Life has always bigger in store for you, I feel when real exams come, things often start failing. Because the real exams in life are not about whether you solved those big DSP questions or you crammed the concepts of Telecommunications, it is all about that little thing that people like you and me call 'Heart'. It is not about the stability of that Z and the causal function, it is about the stability of your soul. So, big people, watch out for little exams, not the ones where you get marks for pen and paper, but for that exam where marksheets are made in heaven.

A Letter by a FOOL, for the INTELLIGENT PEOPLE in the World

Prologue:

This letter is not by me! It is representative of the emotions that I have seen around me in people who are like me, even bigger fools than I am! Fools who define them as follows. This one’s for all people who think they are intelligent. Every fool fights with the world, but then one day he/she says::

Hello all! I am a big fool, and the reasons I will explicitly state. This letter is for all intelligent people in the world who say that I am frantically mad, and is an apology from my side to all of them.

I always thought good for others, I apologize; I helped people , even my foes when they needed me, I apologize; when everyone was busy thrashing each other, I thought I would rather be serene, I apologize; I smiled even at the ones my heart knew are not my well-wishers, I apologize; I blessed everyone without weighing, I apologize; I respected everyone , I apologize; I removed stones from people’s paths though I knew my feet could be hurt, I apologize; I distributed my knowledge to everyone without returns, I apologize; I never thought of getting equal things back, I apologize; I thought it was better to be considerate, I apologize; I knew only faith and no deception, I apologize; and I thought I was a nice person, for that with joined hands, I apologize! So if all intelligent people in the world can forgive me, I APOLOGIZE!

It is not that I am stone, I just pretend to! When things turn wrong, even I feel sad! It is not that I am feel-less, it is just that sometimes I pretend to! When people hurt me, it hurts me! Making my way through the mysteries, now I have learned why I was a fool. It was because when people needed me , I helped them, and did not turn my face like intelligent people. It was because when people greeted me, I smiled and replied back, I forgot not to reply and behave as intelligent people do. It was because I thought to be devoted to people, I forgot that intelligent people are never devoted. It was because when people appeared to be good, I believed them to be good; I forgot that everyone is not a fool like me! It was because I thought that the world was kingdom of God, but I failed to see the Satan’s attire! So if all intelligent people in the world can forgive me, I APOLOGIZE!

I know I am far less dynamic than intelligent people in the world are! I do not know deception, I do not know to kill, I know not how to scold, I have no idea about betraying, I have little knowledge in fighting, and I can not reply you back! I know I have far less qualities than all intelligent people- I am not clever, I am not cool, I do not know to conspire, I have less information on slaying feelings! Forgive me for that!

But there is one thing that all intelligent people and I have in common, and that is Perception. It is not that I can not see when intelligent people speak against me, it is just that I prefer to ignore! It is not that I can not hear when people say wrong things about me, it is just that I behave as if I never had ears, it is not that I can not sense when people are against me, it is just that my soul says, fighting won’t help. So for all this, again forgive me!

Sometimes, some things hurt me a lot, and somewhere there are tears , not in my eyes, but deep inside my heart and soul! Since I have read Geeta, and thus I am a fool, I tend to forget those tears and get back to my life, because I think my discretions would not ever change. But yes, the mirror of that respect and dedication shining bright is breaking a little, and mirrors once broken never join back. And truly, I think, I won’t even make an attempt to join back the broken mirrors, because it hurts and still the mirrors do not join! It hurts to see the same people, whom once you helped- staking yourself, to cause you wounds lasting forever.

And to think that, I am perhaps the biggest fool, because this article is foolish for all Intelligent people. So I apologize! I apologize!

I apologize , but forgive me – I do not think , I can ever change!!I feel blessed to be a fool!!!

FEEDBACK's FEEDBACK

Well, it is not just me who can be observational- there are many others- some of them, my revered friends! So, as people give me feedbacks to this blog- I have words like- Non-humorous, Boring, Absolutely Alien, Uninteresting, and incomprehendable if not properly understood. So, for my dear childhood friends, you must remember, life is exactly that, exactly those five words! Keep Happy!!

कश्तियाँ सबकी किनारो पे लग ही जाती हैं
जिनका नाखुदा ना हो , उनका खुदा होता है!

Well, somethings are just great to read! That's why I thought, it is something useful to be read! Well, to all my loved people, be happy, and feel great, that's the way to live life! Solve things out, and when you can not , leave them there! The keys to some doors are better not found!

DISAPPOINTMENTS!!

Well, to find such a pessimistic article, on my blog could surprise you all! But to all people dear and near, it is something contrary to what it says. There are times in life, when life leaves you hopeless, disappointed, and disgusted about a few almost incorrigible things. This one’s for one of them.

Being an Arian, I take tensions as a part of my hobby! And then fight till I get over them. This article is an attempt to overcome a sheer disappointment. Well, it is said and believed, that you be truthful on your blog. So, being truthful, when people hurt me, I forgive them! But when people hurt my respected ones, my liked ones, I do not try even to forgive them.

Some things in life, can not be put straight, so working in a curvilinear path, I have a message for everyone – my friends, my classmates, even my foes! Life- won’t give you chances always, because it is short! And life won’t always make you meet good people, because even they are short on Earth (I do not know about Aliens, but this statistic holds 100% on Earth). So, if ever in life, you meet a good person, try to respect him and his feelings. It is simple to be indifferent, it is simple to be not concerned, but people, life is not about being Indifferent. It is to honour those who are worth it, it is to be responsible, it is to be devoted, it is to be cared for, it is to be lived and not wasted.

So, at the last part, let me put it right there, in your heads, because hearts can not be reached and changed so easily! People, if you can’t respect someone, do not expect that even. And if you feel great about taking everything, infinitum from someone and not even giving honour in return, you are not smart, you are a fool. And if you enjoy being a fool, I am happy about it! No issues, seriously. But at the end, it is you who will loose, and I am again happy about it! I do not mind!

And for all people , who have cared , given their knowledge, and made everyone happy, who have spread bliss and the enlightenment of their positive energy all around, who have made lives worth living and who have guided people and paths, I salute you. And for all smart fools, who are indifferent to you, all I can say is- I know you will forgive them, that’s how you are!

And that’s why I say- Disappointments are always special. They make me know- WHO IS WHO? Those are times, which tell you realities- bare realities. Proven and Explicit.

MY DAD's THE BEST DAD ....

I know, every daughter feels so, so do I! Before I wish, he fulfills, when I weep, he calms , when I am disturbed, he pacifies! He cares for me without conditions, he loves me without returns, he gives me peace and harmony just by his talks! When I am going wrong, he does not scold, but he brings me to the right paths , when I am sad, his Urdu shayari brings that smile on my face! Unsaid, Unheard, but his soul's voice reaches me straight. I know, the biggest success of the world for him is to see me smile, and the biggest failure to see that single tear trickle down my face.
This one's for you papa, for giving me the energy to fight against the world, and for that infinite love that you have for me .... My strength....

FOR MY PRECIOUS JEWELS

Life moves on, its worries move on, people move on, and in this race, we often forget to thank the ones we really love and admire- so for all people who are beautiful to me, whom my heart admires, appreciates and loves- People, I have this habit of 100%, all or none, if I admire you, I do it completely, if I don't , perhaps I can't ever.
And for people whom I call jewels in my life, My little Krishna Ji, Mom, Dad , My Mentor and my dear friends, salutes to you all, and thanks for making my life colorful with your presence.
Great to have known you!! And this one's because a friend of mine says- sometimes , it is important to express, because sometimes, people might not understand what I feel for them... So dear, this is for you...My expressions which I think, are beautiful when silent , and a bit less effective when expressed....

LOVE TO LIKE?? LIKE TO LOVE??

Two major differences , yes they indeed are! I think summing and adding from facebook, orkut and linkedin, slashing the commons out, I have a set of 73 acquaintances, around 60 , whom I know, I just know, strangely enough - the status says- My Friends!! And I truthfully accept, I do not know to the least if they are friends or foes.
That's how life is!! Hidden masks, false shadows, and ironically enough, continuously compelled and self created! I have no major experiences, no big degrees to flaunt as yet, I am just another University Student, but my head and the little cerebrum in there, has things and concepts, big enough for sure.
There are two categories of people in life- One that you like to love, and the other you love to like. Well, you might call me frantically insane of have spoken that but it's true that there are differences! The former- you like to love are people whom you care for, people you know are your world, people who will be there to hold you back when you fall down a cliff, people who will scold you bad and then bring that little smile across your face, with a tight hug, people who might be real enough to tell you what bad you have got, but will support you till infinity, people who you know are the part of that little kingdom you would remember even with partial Alzheimer's!
The second category, people whom you love to like, are a direct result of your inclinations, that's what I call people whom you like madly, people for whom you will stand behind but perhaps they might move ahead, people who you admire, but the core of that magnet attracting you to like them , is cerbral based , not heart based!
So , to all people I must say, Recognize the right ones! Make sure everyone likes to love you and that you have atleast a four or five, whom you like to love!! Likeliness and Love are just words- to be used on special occasions like Valentine's day and in severe cases if your marriage is on stake, but for our hectic tough lives, let's keep it simple- Realize the feelings of what you call likeliness, and I call an unweighed concern!

Don't ever in life promise that you can die for someone, because it is wasteful! That pompous display of unfelt emotions might not help, If you have to, Promise that even after you die, I will fulfill your and my duties as well, and honour your concerns for everyone you liked to love!

INTIMACY

Sometimes, my dear ones ask me tough baseless questions! This one's for my friend and fellow! It is a short question- How do you define the most intimate friend of yours??
So my answer is- a bit long - My father says- "Keep acquaintance with all, friendship with some, and intimacy with one". My mentor says- "Keep the honor of that pyramid, the pyramid that on the maxima has - best freinds and at the bottom- acquaintances".

So keeping the honor of the two statements, all I have to say is if ever in life, I might have to recognize an intimate person, I must define that person in one word -DIVINITY
A divinity which makes me bow down, kneel down and that too with a contentment in my heart, smile on my face and happiness in my soul...

THERMOCOLS AND SCREWS...

There was a time when I was a little flower, used to hop around, play around, prank people, laugh unweighted loads, could cry when someone slapped, could shout when I was hurt... Everything was free... Shackles I did not know...
And now, I have changed.... That transition that made me professional engineering student, has changed me, now I do not waste my smiles. I have stopped giving smiles to everyone on the way, therefore with some people, I have left scars... I have stopped respecting and believing everyone... I have started selections, aggregations!! Perhaps that is what people call maturity, the art of deftness is purely maturity, the art of weighing is definitely maturity. SO I am undoubtedly mature...

I feel like sharing a nice good experience, good because it has taught me the biggest lessons in life. There I was in a lab and doing my work, I looked behind at a particularly nice naughty friend of mine, to say- 'Stop it! Let me work! Enough! Now stop disturbing me'... And she whispered in my ear- Ok then, never again I will do it!

Hurt, I was hurt, because actually somewhere there are a few lot of people in your life, you like getting disturbed by, so I went to her- with a smile- and said- "I am sorry dear.." And she looked back and said- "Go back, I am doing my work. Do not disturb"
SO struck was I at this small sentence, that I decided to put it at my blog. People in life , except your parents and mentors, won't understand you, won't wait for you, won't ever try to see you from your perspective! They will understand you, as you appear to them apparently, and when you hurt them, they will also look back on hurting you equally, which is right!! Very right...
So, the crux of this long story , which might have been a boring dose for you, atleast definitely on my blog, is - Know your limits, do not penetrate deep into thermocols to stick them onto walls, because sometimes the depth of thermocols is longer than the depth of your screw to punch them onto walls....

Places change, Persons never do...

As God says and as everyone in the world says, Life is all about moving, it is a train of imaginations, a play of perceptions. True. As I see it from my perspective, people and convictions keep changing in your life, you would remember them a day or two and in a metropolitan like Delhi, you would not take more than a week to forget things, and may be an extra weekend to forget people!
People whom you work with, people whom you like, people whom you respect, ironically, work, likeliness, respect , all vanishes in less than the time it will take you to light a matchstick probably. That’s how we all are! Whatever happens, the system moves on, the caravan of our life moves on, no hurdles, no blockings.... The above is a piece of writing I have assembled from the vast knowledge of my reading skills- This is what I call a Philosopher’s view.
And now, time to be real!!! Whatever you may be, a doctor, a professor, an engineer or some big millionare, there are some people who are rhythms of the violin which tunes your life. Some people without whom, your system would not stop, but yes, your faith in the system would! Some people without whom your caravan will still move on, but without whom, perhaps when walking in a desert you will look behind with a thirsty throat, you will not find a mentor to guide you to the oasis! People whom you always thought were inextricably annealed in your daily schedules, but you never realized how vacant things could be without them. People, who are not People for you, the ones who are Persons , Important Persons for you, the crowd will never matter, but they will always.
I am a delhite, perhaps that’s why I am born with that selfish instinct. Before others’ good, I think for mine. But this one day, I feel I have deviated from my default behaviour. For the first time, I think its someone else ‘s good that has convinced me more than mine. Having few flawless talks with a very important and revered person I know, I could evidence he was right. So this one article, is for him!!
In a system, where people know you , but pretend not to , in a system where people around you are not people but just another selfish beings, a system where you are working, and everyone else is lost, a system where you are the best from every perspective, but your peers do not agree, in a system where your documents matter more than you thoughts, a system where corrupt persons always make the truthful go down, a system where a profession has lost the status of being it,a system where ideas and ideals do not matter, a system where hurdles are not removed , instead made, a system where ethics are invisible, a system that I call- India, believe me, even I agree- Leave it!!
And for that person, all I have to say is- There are people you can leave behind, but persons and important persons, can not be left behind ever. Parents , Mentors and Gods, stand besides you, everytime you look for them, so we are sure, each time we are going to look back, we are going to find you, without doubt. All my wishes with you forever. Places can change, but Persons never do. I know for sure...And so are you and your blessings...

Ghalib Saab, I agree!!

Being a person of high observations, I see around all the time when I am not seeing myself in the mirror, to check what I have been to myself. And in this process of seeing around, I find- People , or I should call them money-blinded fanatics, roaming around. Sometimes, I find myself, standing in the middle of the road, with open arms , intentions to hug, and they come, crush and trample over my dead dreams. And I say something to myself, which Ghlaib Saab said to the world one day-

रहिए अब ऐसी जगह चलकर जहाँ कोई ना हो
हमौखान कोई ना हो और हमज़बान कोई ना हो
बेदर-ओ-दीवार सा एक घर बनाना चाहिए
कोई हम साया ना हो और पासबां कोई ना हो
हो जाए गर बीमार तो कोई ना हो तीमारदार
और गर मर जाइए तो नौहखवान कोई ना हो!!

SPECIAL SOMEONES...

This one's for a special category of people, and there are two notations to follow-
Notation 1: What I call them- Foolishly Shameless
Notation 2: What they call themselves- Smartly Intelligent

People around me, unfortunately mismatch to my brain. Sometimes, I am forced to think, perhaps my neurons are not settled well! And at other times, I just say to myself- Thankyou God for making me the person I am, that I am not amongst those people who call them smart, resourceful professionals, for me, perhaps I am better off a fool, with good ethics!!
SO great people there, if you screw up things, and think that you are smart, be smart and blow your trumpets... but remember hollow trumpets and no truth will never have good musics and right rhythms....

QUEST

In your quest for God, search for success, look for calmness and thirst for desires, you might have felt defeated.... because somethings in life don't have ends. And people feel , they failed to find. So, for everyone who searched and failed, anything or everything in life....

ये गलत कहा किसी ने की तेरा पता नही है ,
तुझे ढूंड़ने की हद तक कोई ढूंदता नही है !

DISCOVER...

It is said, the day you discover yourself, the day you discover God. So today, I have made a partially successful effort to discover myself. And I have drawn one gist out of my life- "In an attempt to love others, I became love, and in an attempt to hate others, I became hatred. And I wish the latter was less, the former more"
There's a phenomenon we call camouflage, that is if you see the environment changing, you tend to change yourself for adaptation. And I think I have been long doing that, continuously. And all I have to say to people is- This camouflage kills! So never in life change, and if you ever do, try to revert back.
There are people in life, whose truthfulness will make you embarrassed about what you have been. So let's not stop, because life is dynamic! Let's try to make ourselves good, liked, loved! And to all people who have kept the light of truth alive, only a request - Don't change ever! Earth is short of people like you.

JUST THOUGHT....

Read it in a book- "Relationships and fire are just the same. You go too close, it will burn you, you go too far, you will get cold." Truly written... I think each and everything in your life has boundaries, the limits often not visible but clearly defined. Adhere to them, they will make you happy, go beyond and they will kill you....
So, look for people, who will be there with you, for you, because they care, they respect.... And once you find them, in your own mini world, treasure them forever.....and ever....

WELL, SAD TO BE AN UNDERGRADUATE...

My kiths and kins, all congratulate me... On having got admission to an Engineering college!! They feel glad that after one year, they will have a good Engineer may be, in their family of all Lawyers... But strange is this life...
I am not very happy, to be an undergraduate. And why?? Because, the order of priorities, around me, is changing....
Year 1- It was "us"
Year 2- It became "Some of us"
Year 3- It became "Me"
Year 4- I doubt..... It will be "just me"
I know this is the story with 90% undergraduates, but again as always, depleting my mind of the extra charges, I think I must blurt out finally - My suggestion to everyone dear, is - "Marks, jobs, certificates, projects, papers.... All this counts.... But after 10 years, when you will turn back, these things will be hollow tags, useful for nothing!! What counts, is a true association... Friends, Parents or Teachers-- So the secret is-- Earn true points.... "
And yes, if you worry about the rest of them- papers, projects or certifiates, all i have to say is- "Find a shop where you can buy these, and I am sure you can afford the cost".... But for true devotions..... well, if you ever find a shop... Dear, you are on a wrong false way..

MY THREE CATEGORIES OF PEOPLE…

Well, I have derived a new philosophy. And I am in a great mood to share it. There are always three kinds of people in the world. First are MIRRORS: They reflect! You tell them a thing, and they will transform themselves to adhere to your philosophy. Second are WATERS: They will dissolve you in themselves, their colour will colour you, head to toe and you will feel glad that you met them. Third are FIRES: They ignite you to do things, sometimes bad, sometimes good. But they will always be seen burning with something….
The FIRES will excite you, the MIRRORS will satisfy your egos, and the WATERS will cool you down.
Suggestions for everyone, let the FIRES burn, let the MIRRORS reflect, search out for the WATERS, they will give you the stability to live, believe me!!

NEWTON's THIRD LAW- MODIFIED

I am an aspiring Engineer, so I am made to fight for patents and papers.... I have modified newton's third law so I request everyone who reads this blog to support me in finding myself a patent.... Well!! Newton said- Every action has an equal and opposite reaction.... I disagree... Every action has an equal but not opposite reaction. I know- the world works on evidence... So, dear people, I have enough of that..
When I get irritated about something and shout( My Action), my mother always comes to calm me down, she never reacts....
When I loose my diamond earrings and cry, my father always comes to say- "Dear, I will get you new..", he does not react...
When I am sad, not glad and my mood bad, and I shout in my strangest ways to My Lord, he never reacts.... He just says-"All happiness yours, all worries mine.."
I act, they do not react.... So, where did Newton say right... I have a suggestion for all people who are good engineers, good thinkers.... Be a person first.... That will count... Nothing else ever has counted, won't ever count!

ACCEPTANCE

The most difficult thing in life is Acceptance. And the most difficult acceptance in life Is TRUTH. Truth is always small, clear and effective, but the ego inherent in our minds and hearts never lets us accept it. Strange enough….
The acceptance of truth is an art, an art that any one of us can learn quite easily, but something that I would a call a devil inside all of us, stops us from learning. We fear, but we behave confident, we dislike, and pretend to like. And that keeps killing us.
Quite true, when you start travelling on paths the Lord had once suggested, long back to Arjuna, you will find the truth of my statement. Sometimes, in life, you cross boundaries, without fear and that day your whims, your wishes, your infatuations, your attractions, passions, all come to an end. That do you will feel an eternal bliss, a kind of attraction to yourself and your lord, and that day will be the happiest day of your life.
So let’s try to forget, let’s try to see the better side of things. Let’s try and feel that everything in the world is good. Sometimes, mirage makes you happier, because you can not take the realities of the mirror anymore. Try to imagine… that the world is sweet, as sweet as you would want it to be. Because happiness- yours and of your loved people, is the solution to everything in life....

Change is the life of our life

I am an Indian. But unfortunately I am not proud of India. People here in India are great.They talk about changes, they carry campaigns about making their country perfect, they teach their young students to bring about changes, they cry out loud about the adaptations our India needs, and here comes the twist, when it comes to implementing those changes , they sleep, with two blankets up their body, ears covered with pillows.
You , dipped in the ever-lasting devotion towards your institution and profession, may put the best of your efforts, for THE CHANGE that our India needs to become PERFECT, but the authorities, or better said, authoritarians, will turn towards you, with a bad face, and say- ‘Why did you do this? Can’t you follow the system?’ And then in your heart, you will be forced to think- “If I follow the system, how do I bring a change?, Moron!!” …
This one's not for the change inducers, it's for the blockers. Here's what I have to say to them:
"Dear People,
If you are sleeping when the whole world is changing, please keep sleeping, I do not mind. But please let those who are awake, work! So that one day, each child in India, will be able to read in his Social Science book, that we are a developed nation, not developing. No nation is perfect, we have to make it perfect, and for that we require people who can think intellectually…."
My salutes to all people who have tried to bring changes. A support by even one citizen matters. So I am there with you all....

PROFESSIONALISM....

No, professionalism did not make me blind, it just taught me to close my eyes.... When I see someone dying, someone crying..... No, it did not tell me that people were not important, it just told me the order of that wonderful priority- me before you.... I call myself- a great professional, and why not? I have all qualities- I am selfish, I love money, I love myself, I hate people, I can die for success.... But when I sleep at night, I find myself asking me- What next? And everytime encountering that question, I seem to be getting lost, deeper and deeper into the thoughts of the day which will be the last day of my life.... And then -when God shall ask me- What next?? I will not have an answer..... So for everyone who's dear and near, Search the answer to that question.... today or never!!!

SOME PEOPLE MAKE YOU SMILE, RIGHT FROM THE HEART

This one's for the best people in my life!! No, I won't name them, but yes, they are people I would love to be with till the end of my life! People ask me , how do you recognize the best persons of your life, do you use calculations?? So, I say- No, I am a bad mathematician, probably... so I use my heart- believe me , there's no scientific calculator better than that... I recognize people are important to me, when I see them- and I feel like smiling, when I remember them - and I feel like laughing!! People, whom I would want to see, when I will be breathing my last in some city hospital, and with that low dose of anesthesia, when I shall open my eyes and see them, I will----------Smile again, I know!!

LUB-DUB

Things in life, I have observed are not going well.. And I have been told, they will not, ever!! SO, I have accepted the things as they are, I let people say, I let voices echo.... Because someone says--- GIGO is the principle of life---- Garbage In, Garbage out.... One is followed by the other.... So I take the input, apply Kalman filters to remove colored noise and then I recover my original denoised image.... Yes!!! I have learnt that skill.. Earlier I used to cry when people hurt me, now I smile for GIGO keeps me happy.... When I see someone bad, I do not feel sad, because someone says- see the better side of things dear.... If 2 out of 10 are bad, let them be bad, because they are actually giving you the chance to be called good. White is nothing without black, remember. Smile is the solution to even the biggest problem. Keep your hand on your heart, feel your beat, and then say to it- "Sweetheart, you are precious to me, so keep beating right, lub-dub, lub-dub, lub-dub, and when someone hurts you , let the rascal be--- and then again lub-dub, lub-dub, because that's the cycle of life... forever ....and forever"

Ghalib said.....

Ghalib said:
बाज़ीचा-ए-अत्फ़ाल है दुनिया मेरे आगे
होता है शब-ओ-रोज़ तमाशा मेरे आगे
For me everything is but a mere play, and every day a new episode of that play...

When things turn wrong , and adversities turn strong, I advise you to remember this!!! Things, people, ideas, environment, relations, emotions and feelings, everything changes..... But soul does not!! The worst moment of your life will not be when people will not respect you, it will be when sitting in the dark corner of a room one day, you will not be able to respect yourself.....
So forget the thorns, move on with the roses....
If you want to be someone, be yourself....
If you want to succeed, devote everything to the Almighty....
If you want something to matter, make it loyalty, not to anyone else, but to yourself...
Be so strong that no one in the world is as strong to resist you!!! As they say:

Kshama Shobhti us Bhujang Ko, Jiske paas garal ho,,,
Usko kya jo dantheen, vishheen, vineet, saral ho.....

MY 4 PRINCIPLES OF HAPPY LIFE

My four principles of happy life:
1. Try to be happy, only then you can be happy!
2. Forget, Forgive and Free yourself of all guilts, have problems-say it, have tension- remove it, have agony- calm it..... Lighting fires are never liked much, cool waters always are!!
3. Smile when others prick you, and be silent when they abuse you. Silence will make a mirror out of your soul, clear, shining , lightfull and shimmering... And smile?? Will polish that mirror well...
4. Have faith in two things- one yourself, other God, then you are always a winner...

MY IDENTITY.... PERHAPS LOST

Correctly said- straight trees are cut first...There was a time when I was one of those trees!!Then, I became crooked, bent , clever and quick.... In an inefficent unsuccessful attempt to change myself, here I am a new girl thats not me, a new person thats not me..... Quick but not good, professional but not successful, concerned but not understanding.....

This one day, I peeped inside, there was a thin curtain-- covered with a dust film, I had to spend hours to remove dust.....And then finally I thought... I will remove the curtain as well.... I removed it, and found-- there I was... The same girl I had been for years, tears on silent rebukes, hurt heart at every little scold, those ulterior and apparent angers, but that warmth in soul for everyone from that little pigeon to that big dinasour.....

Life is all about forgiving, forgetting and freeing ourselves. All about truthfulness, faith and devotion.... Truthfulness because it makes you free, free of playing chess at every step of your lives, faith in yourself for it gives you reassurance and devotion for that Almighty..... That omnipresent...

ANSWER HIM RIGHT!!!

Often in that little glimpse of AAJ TAK, I see some robust personalities, dark handsome, staunch, shining bright, beaming with confidence, hard to break- seems like the world will bow down, but these gentlemen- never!! Often while taking that light evening walk, I hear some strong voices discussing deals worth crores, seems like …selling airplanes is fun for them!! Often, when I am still too lazy to drink my morning milk, someone reads aloud -how the great business tycoons are winning the world, seems like the Himalaya can break, but their hearts and decisions are diamonds, the hardest stones!! Often while roaming in the campus with that big unthoughtful smile, I see some lecturers, stark white shirts, composed and learned, seems like the whole world might be in grief, but these people will be silent, sombre!!!!

MIRAGE- deserts are said to have this. But it is not that far…. Often the mirage is within our hearts, our minds, our souls, correctly highlighting. You can become a scientist, but you can not experiment with your own life. You can become an Advocate but you can not fight a case with your destiny. You can become a lecturer but it is hardest to teach yourself what life is!! You can become a doctor but you can not cure yourself of your soul’s illness! You can become a business tycoon, but Boss; it is really difficult to make good deals with happiness and satisfaction.

Life is a very strange thing, when you want to live, it does not let you live and when you do not want to live, it comes and says- now live sweetheart! And in such times, comes out candidly, the concept of equality!! God says every man is equal. And here I am his true disciple to support him. Some of you may be millionaires, some big bungalow owners, some Honda city owners, some middle class like me, and some could be beggars too! But there is one thing that unites us all… And that is our heart! Tycoons or doctors, engineers or scientists -- life and its games, its honey wrapped poisons and poison loaded truths are the same for everyone! True enough; in a society like ours where a knife in each other’s intestines is no big thing, the above statement is a bit incomprehendable. But I will take full responsibility to land you safe in the island of unknown facts.

Being children we all cry, weep for sweets and chocolates for we do not know they are costly or cheap, being teenagers we all want to look beautiful- the little difference being whether to use those insignificant sandal packs or using L’Oreal and Maybelline, being adults we all want to earn, the little gap is whether we earn 100 or 100 crores, being old men, we all want contentment, the little factor differing is whether contentment is one house to live in or three big bungalows in Civil Lines.

Webs – yes- that is the word I should give to the piece of text I just wrote above. Believe me, once in your life, break the webs, come out and you shall know the depth of what I say now. When we are children, and someone slaps us in anger, we all cry ; when our beloved leaves us alone, we all spend nights in memories; when someone gives us a hug, we all feel thankful; when dreams are hard to achieve and time less, we all spend sleepless nights; when someone makes us laugh, we all smile with rays of happiness ; when someone gives pain, we all feel pricked; when we celebrate our first anniversaries, often with those tough looks and a diamond jewellery erasable(DJE) RAM of our last one year fights, cherishing the past, we all feel happy; when we see our first child in our lap, we all have tears in our eyes; when he gets unwell for the first time, we all run to doctors with worried faces and strange convictions, agreeing to give any fee; when our children pass out their degrees, with spectacles in our eyes, we all try to search them good matches; when we grow old ,and our children , busy in their self weaved new world, don’t talk to us, we all feel hurt; when, lying in one corner of the same house where we once held them by hand and taught them how to walk, we see the same people walking away, we all cry in dark nights; when life is about to end, we all look back once, and think, what we earned , what we lost, what we gained and what was not…. And then one day each one of us returns to the God’s kingdom where HE asks us--- “Do you believe yourself and others on earth to be the same?” And blind eyed we say, no, I was a doctor, no, I was an engineer. And the Almighty, the omnipotent, the omnipresent, says--- “Wrong answer my dear, wrong answer!! I wish you had realized that you were one, same feelings, same weeping, same worries, same smiles, just the ways differed and you failed to answer me right!!”

TRANSITIONS.... SHORT BUT IMPORTANT

If you ever observed an obituary correctly , you would have noticed the time span of people, 1965-2008, that little dash in between is life!! We do not often realize, or if I more correctly state, we do not have time to realize, how important that little lively loving dash is! Indeed it is a dash, and how we fill it is our wish.